Omg it's June already!
Seriously 2018 - I can't keep up anymore.
Ramadhan Kareem, guys!
Anyhow, the past two months have been a hell of a ride. I quit my job after weeks of stress and feeling unappreciated at the same time.
I am also dealing with personal issues of my own which also contributed to the overwhelming feelings at work. So after a lot of consideration, I've decided to resign.
A lot of people were really surprised that I decided to quit since I love the company so much and the scarier part is that I quit without securing another job. Lol
But then again, here I am a month + after, unemployed and feeling so much better about myself.
Let me assured you that it is not always rainbow and sunshine like how it is potrayed on socmed and I learned it the hard way.
What makes me sad the most is definitely leaving the girls which I already consider my sisters at work. They have definitely made work more bearable and I have been missing them every single day tbh :c
What makes me even sadder (and so annoyed at the same time) is how ego can kills what you have with a person. I don't want to burn bridge but I am tired for still having to do everything again, just like how I did 8 years ago.
So this time, I've decided to just let it go.
And I realized it doesn't affect me much.
I am looking for better opportunities as of now and I couldn't thank everyone enough for their constant support and prayers.
I am feeling a lot better now that most of my to-do-lists are all crossed out. Maximizing my unintended breaks to attend to my car issues, dental check up, etc.
So nervous waiting for updates from the latest interviewee on the result.
Doakan I please!
[writing this while waiting for work to commence.]
remember my last blog post?
I did the unthinkable - I resigned.
It was some what one of the most sudden, hastily made, however the best decision I have ever made. I've had enough just about everything in my life so I told myself to calm the fuck down and take things one at a time.
I have been suppressing this anxiety-meltdown-depression issue so now, I think it is finally time to face my demon. I took an unofficial test with one of my doctor friend the other day, so basically what we did was she took my blood pressure and at the same time I have to answer some questionnaires.
The result came back few days after and I drafted my resignation that very night. For me, it is now best that I look after myself before I can actually start doing other things. I am still fit to work but for now, I feel that my rezeki with FV sampai sini sahaja. It was not the easiest thing to do, but I told myself to take the leap of faith and trust my own instinct.
Alhamdulillah, dalam time tengah sembang dengan kawan-kawan, not one but five potential employers show interest after looking at my resume.
I am honestly scared because I still have a few commitments to pay for on monthly basis, precisely around RM1,850.00 (or lesser), which is non-inclusive of my daily commute and meal expenses.
but I had it.
I dread coming to work and that's something I don't like at all. This is such a ball-sy move for me to be honest, but meh. Discussed about this with Mak and she told me to do what's best for me.
I am now counting days till my last day here and I am making every second counts.
I am definitely gonna miss the people here :c
Tuesday, April 10, 2018 | Posted by Atika |
It's April, guys.
Time flies huh?
wishing I am this chill right now.
I know I promised that I'll update my Melbourne trip but I don't think it is happening soon. I am currently taking a breather as I just got back from work.
I was assigned to a new project at work earlier this year and it is honestly draining my energy mentally and physically. In a good way of course. It made me use all the soft skills I have to execute the project accordingly.
The pressure, however is so high. I mean, I am not exactly given guidelines BUT I am fortunate that my manager and boss are willing to help me out for any decision making. I am still struggling but I hope it'll get better soon. I guess a lot of stakeholders are not really briefed thoroughly and it is still pretty vague as of now.
I am adapting to the crazy days at the office (even crazier because it is only me alone!) and I did break down a few times. I tried my best to keep my cool but life gets to you, you know?
I am super grateful to have my teammates and other colleagues helping me out throughout the past three weeks because honestly without them, I might not be able to do it alone. Let me share a secret: I am terrified to get on the bad side of people. So most of the times I just panicked alone and just prayeeeeed that everything will be smooth sailing. Lol #nothelping
Doing this project has changed my working hours a lot. I also had to let go of my social life since I need to prepare myself before the inquiries start coming in. No more social life (which means more $$$ in the bank 😂) and weekends are now full of weddings as well! #foreverbusy
I am honestly so exhausted rn and tend to keep it to myself these days. I am giving myself 3 months if this really works and I hope it does.
Penat gila okay. Tapi puas la kan when we get to assist someone out when he/she needs help.
I told myself that I want to hustle through this project and will try to provide a better and seamless experience for all of the people involved.
I still have a long way to go, but right now I just want to take a damn breather, that's all.
Labels: 2018, updates