From Tirzah's ;
Sunday, December 5, 2010 | Posted by Atika |
Sometimes to know that the more you get comfortable with something the more you show your real self to something. You unleash yourself like the tortoise getting use to the surroundings. It's simply as simple as that. You tend to use that veil where you always cover yourself up when you meet new people. An opaque view where people can and cannot see the "you" you were. Then as time pass, you took steps by steps in unveiling yourself, time by time then you took them off then put it on back again. Because you know you're this insecure to even show the whole you.
Sometimes you get so afraid what if people knew what was behind the whole makeup. You got afraid they might run away so you plays roles where people all outside there and you wishes people you met where like this noble person you yearn to even know.
Then you got the assurance that it's fine to show them all. But on the other hand you were insecure and question might this person leave you someday just because of the way you acted sometimes. You became way you that it scares people. Even if they said, it's better to be yourself than to be someone else as it is too tiring. So there you go, you got all controversial with yourself not knowing when and how to prove that this is the real you. So, you went with the flow, you became more understanding, which is always a give and take situation, you had to compromise. Soon, you chose to show them all. Even though knowing this might be a battle, you knew that it was imperfect yet amazingly beautiful the way it had been.
Somehow, a small change comes with a huge impact in others. You made an oath to yourself that you will change, and that is the best change and the best sacrifice you made indeed. I am here now, feeling all blissful and blessed because those who meant the world to me are changing because they themselves wanted to. They are going to be a better self starting from today. Amin.
Alas, I will be here, to be your strongest supporter because i want you to know, that no matter what, this girl will be there for you. I PROMISE :-D