Saturday, March 12, 2011 | Posted by Atika |
Two friggin week of emotional hell and I guess I had enough of it. Education performances have gone from bad to worse :( I'm sleep-deprived thanks to my own failure in time management. grrr . MAT112 and BBM110, two of my feared subject for this semester. No longer excited waiting for my annual dinner. I don't know why. I need to breath
. I need fresh clean air to breath. to breath in and breath out , without worrying that the air might succumb all the misery that longs my mind and choke me to death . literally
I want erase all the frowns and hatred and start over. can i ?
I miss HOME. I am now officially, homesick :'(
I am tired , trying to satisfy everyone's expectations. No, I'm not sad. I'm just , uhm - tired. My energy level has gone hay wired since the semester commenced. I can be moody, gloomy, happy and all excited just like that. My emotions has turn into invisible switches . ON and OFF . Getting busier than ever. aaaaaaaa. D; I need time for myself. for once. I've realized that I have been putting so little efforts in my studies. Mak, I'm sorry. I've done my best.
No worries, I can still smile :)
For those who aren't appreciative at all, well, GTFO then :'D I don't need you anymore. Enough said. and well , I shall not GIVE UP. not after all the pain and sufferings and the tides of experiences I had to go through. right ?
YA ALLAH , BERIKAN HAMBAMU INI KEKUATAN.
Nothing is permanent. Especially people. Don't have your hopes high, friends become strangers, lovers become friends. And people leave - the wonders of TUMBLR.
TeeraThorssons , 2011.
and how I wish , there's someone that can bedazzle my life for a start :)
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