Just to be clear on that before I start.
Anyway, was just wondering about the topic of relationships. As in BGR. A sensitive and open topic I must say... But I guess there aren't really many people who read my blog so it's ok.
Well, I've never been in one, so... I don't really know how it feels like. I'm not gonna rush into one just to try it out, because I think it's stupid to do so, and it's unfair to the other party. Plus I don't think I have a high chance to be able to have one.
I've had crushes before though. A couple. But I've never confessed once. One reason is because I'm different. Another is that I always feel I'm not ready to enter a relationship. I have questions all the time, like, how am I gonna treat him? What should I do? Because I believe that uhm - well -
I'm not the kinda girl that guys will be attracted to at first sight, because I don't give lasting impressions. Some of them don't take me seriously. I think I'm the type whom you've gotta hang out with and get to know me more, and just perhaps you'll grow to like me. About myself -- I am very hyperactive. so I think I am more likely attracted to those quiet ones. And one thing I know, I'll only be happy if he's happy. I won't mind going down just to see the other party going up. This is also how I treat my closest friends too.
About my ideal boy... A few people are actually curious about what kind of boy I'd go for. I think I'm more into personality and character (not that I'm trying to be politically correct), but as long as he looks ok I'm ok (I know I'm not that attractive myself either). Well, I would like him to be bubbly and cheerful, someone whom I can talk continuously with. I hate awkward silences/pauses. I love music and movies, so preferably he loves it too! Not those classical kind but you know, sing along with me, groove with me when a nice song is on air, and of course, fashion. Oh and I hope - wait , DON'T want him to smoke. I don't need to meet him so frequently because I know both of us have to have our own space and social circle too (I don't like possessive girlfriends so I'm never gonna be one).
As I have mentioned before in my blog, I value TRUST and HONESTY.
So there you have it. I'm not advertising myself nor am I posting an ad to search for a boyfriend. In case you're thinking about that now. I just wanna pour this out because all this stuff has been sitting in my mind for quite a while now. Collecting dust even.